This morning went well. Angie massaged mom around 6am and then got ready for work. The girls woke up at 6:50am and proceeded to get ready for school. Mom wasn't feeling to well so I asked our neighbor Janice if the girls can walk with her to the bus stop. The girls kissed grandma and went next door.
Mom took her medication like she was supposed to. She started smiling at me and I asked her what are you smiling for and she said "It's a secret." I started laughing. I is nice to see her smiling. I made her some peaches and cream oat meal and she took about 3 bites. She said it was good. Then she asked me to give her OIL and Ice. Of course I laughed and told her to stop being silly so she smiled again. Her hands are starting to twitch when she rests and when she holds things. She was holding her bowl and her hand twitched quite a few times so she looked at her hands with a funny kind of face(more like what is going on). Now she is back to sleep.I miss mom talking to me. Her blood pressure is great. And I'll write more later
Yesterday
The nurse said in his papers that mom is deteriorating. Angie was upset and started to cry. I went in her room and was trying to console her. I told her she is slowly forgetting things. I explained to Angie that she has to be strong. I hurts me to see mom this way but I have to be strong for the whole family. Mom needs us now more than ever. I told her she needs to spend as much time with mom as she can. And be strong for mom. Angie said "I'm not ready to give her up yet " So I told her "me neither" but god will take her when he's ready and when he knows we are ready to let her go. We can't be selfish now. I also told her " I won't break down and cry in front of mom because I don't want mom to see how much I hurt on the inside to see her this way" So i make the best of the moments I have with her be it me watching her sleep, massaging her, giving her her medicine, helping her in general or just having what little conversation with her when she is up for a few seconds. I told Angie to do the same.
I also want everyone to think about all the good times we had with mom and the little things that she shared with you, keep that close to your hearts.
I Love You all And Mom does too.
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Francine:
I am so impressed by your compassion and ability to be so strong for your family. You are incredibly strong and wise at your young age. Keep it up girl. Your mom is lucky to have all of you there with her. Hug her for me. Thanks for the blog, too. I no longer have to really wonder what is going on. I can just read about it.
Love,
Cindy
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