For the past 2 days it's been really hitting us that mom "is ready". All she keeps talking about is leaving this earth to see grandma. She says things like "grandma already approved of me going to her and I'M READY". Mom has been preparing us for many years but to finally come to grips that it might happen any moment hurts like hell. Nin and Uncle Johnny came last night and I'm very happy they could be here in her final days. Nin being that she Met Jody, got married at 17 and went on to start her family life with three wonderful kids. I know this experience will take a tremendous toll on her heart. I'm trying to let everyone spend some time with mom because i've been there and I want them to make some memories with her to in her last days. But I feel like I NEED to be in there for mom but I can't be selfish with her time.

Uncle Johnny came also leaving the side of his wife to be with mom. Mom made all of us promise (tear) to take care of him because HE'S THE YOUNGEST of her family and mom promised Grandma she would take care of him now she's ready to pass the torch to us her kids.

Yesterday afternoon Angie and I picked up some freezer meals and some necessities from Tracy's house. She generously started a little freezer meal sign up that led into many people donating more than just meals. Our family is VERY grateful for everything that KINGWOOD UNDERGROUND has done for us especially for their support, prayers and mainly being my outlet to TALK when I need to talk. We are very surprised that there are still people out there who care about families going through rough times instead of turning you head.

I've been video taping mom while she has conversations with everyone she told dad to call. I just wanted everyone to know her reaction and smiles she did while talking. I think that would help many of us. Especially to see her smile.

We have a 10 o'clock appointment with the funeral home today. I must say that it breaks my heart knowing it's almost time and just having to make the arraignments while she's still here hurts even more. We know we have to be prepared for this because we know when she does pass we won't be in our right mind and know what to do.

As a family we are trying to hang in there, slowly losing the strongest link in your family SUCKS big time. We are trying to keep our heads up and we are ready when mom is.